Looking at him. Shaking; holding back the pain I feel from the monsters inside.
My jeans rub against the open cut made earlier. I can smell the blood wanting to escape. I promised myself never again but promises are meant to be broken right?
"I am not perfect"
"You're perfect to me" he said.
The butterflies
multiplied. I hide my face again, blushing madly. He takes my hands in
his. Then I turn
around and lean against him, staring up at the full moon. He wraps his
arms around me and holds me close. I can feel his heart beat and I
concentrate on it. It's steady, yet quick, pulse calms me down. He is my balance. He is my comfort. He is my safehaven. He leans down and whispers "I love you'' in my ear.
Inside, my mind goes blank. I try to tell him I loved him too, but the
words would not come out. I've known for months.I just could not ever let him know. I think he's known all along, but never showed. I turn around and hug him, and let him hold me. He kisses my
forehead, then my nose, then kisses me for real. I can feel him put his
everything into this kiss so I put my everything back. we pull away and
I look him straight in the eyes, as my tears start to escape, and say " I love you More''.
